Two Things I Heard Today and Something I Read

Oi Bebes,

I'm still waiting and have heard nothing from the FBI as to Grandpa's prints. As always I remain positive because I know it's just a matter of time. God's time. This morning I read an article that spoke about God's waiting room. It was titled, "Risks in Faith: When God Delays." As you know I come from the "everything happens for a reason" school and so (especially of late) I trust in God's timing. There's so many things going on right now in my life, some good and some not so good, but I definitely see a change in direction, a positive change -- a change that God has got his hands all over. As I'm sure you know change can also be very sad but if we trust that God is doing what is right for us we will be comforted, the sadness will come to pass and there will be a bright light at the end of the tunnel. That bright light for me is you.

I have a vision in my head of me cooking you dinner, the tv is blasting, toys are all over the place, homework isn't done yet, I'm exhausted and there's still 3 hours before bedtime. I glance up from the stove and there you both are. That is what I think of when I think of the light at the end of the tunnel. Watching you smile, learning to trust each other, holding hands, playing together, falling asleep while I while read to you at the end of the night, laughing together, exploring together, learning from each other. The list goes on and on but that's my light at the end of the tunnel, having you both in my life because you are my dream.

And so while I'm in God's waiting room ... after a long and very difficult winter, I'm finally enjoying the every day. I'm beginning to laugh again, and I catch myself smiling a lot more often than before. I know Grandma Rosie is looking down on me thinking "Finally! My daughter is back!" Grandma used to say that when I entered a room, I lit it up. Imagine when she sees us together!

OK so I'll leave you both with this: John 13:7, when Jesus said: “You do not realize now what I'm doing but later you will understand” (NIV). I'm sure that we will look back at this period of adoption stagnation and know one day why we had to wait. Remember that God's got a plan for us. A way way way better plan than we could ever hatch ourselves, that's for sure. Remember too that His timing is perfect.

As always before you go to sleep at night, ask God to connect us and to watch over us.

Muito Muito Amor
Mommy

OHH I forgot the two things I heard today!

Whatever is special in this life you have to fight for. Whatever it takes crianças, I will do whatever it takes...

and

A family is what you make of it. That's sooo on the money! I've been saying it all along.

xxxMommy