A Very Sad Stop Work Order

Oi Bebes,

I just received word from our attorney that my Italian police clearance finally came through, after having waited 4 months for the document. In normal circumstances I would be jumping up and down for joy. I am not, I'm incredibly saddened as I was informed by him to stop working on my dossier, that the problems between Brazil and the US regarding the Hague Convention are too vast and too complicated to hash out any time soon, if they are hashed out at all.

I just do not know what to say. God sure does work in mysterious ways and I just can't figure out why this is happening and why it's happening now. My heart hurts sooo bad in this moment but I seem to be getting used to the feeling. Since my mother's death I have become a master at maintaining my composure. Nothing has ever hurt me more than losing my mom, as you guys know -- it's the one thing we have in common thus far.

I don't see this as the end. I will not accept it as an end. I see it as the beginning of something quiet different, something I am yet unaware of. I'm guided by God's hands on a daily basis and you are too, so, with no end in sight, somehow I will move forward.

As always, before you go to bed ask God to connect us somehow, some way. I have a lot of faith in Him, I know He does no wrong.

xxxPatricia