March 4th, First Big Day

Oi Bebe/s

Tomorrow is the big day, well, the first big day of which I am sure they'll be many; especially the day I get your referral, the day we meet for the first time, the flight back to NY, the first time you walk into your new home; the first time you meet your grandfather; your new dog; your aunts, uncles and cousins (alright -- I'm going off topic here, lol). Tomorrow is the day I meet my social worker. I hope s/he's cool and laid back, because I am, you'll see. I'm a little nervous but I guess it goes with the territory of becoming a new mother.

In other news I've been doing the required Hague seminars and while I fully understood everything discussed when it came time to take the tests I thought for sure I'd fail. It was so weird. I was completely in panic mode. When they sent the results of the fist test I took I started to cry. I got 100%! This of course doesn't mean that I'm going to never make mistakes with you and that I know it all because I don't. It does mean though, that I'm trying very hard to understand what has happened in your lives and how it's affected you emotionally, physically and developmentally and what I can do to help you heal.

OKAYDOKAY -- When you go to sleep tonight and you think of me close your little eyes and say a prayer. Every night before I go to sleep I ask God to connect us. I ask Him to ease your fears and to keep you safe until I could bring you home. Now it's your turn: ask God to ease my fears and bring us together quick! One thing that I always want you to remember and that I'll say over and over again is that God's got our backs. He will not let anything happen to us that we cannot handle together as a family.

I'll keep you posted! Wish me luck!

Muito Amor,
Mommy